confidence builder

I wish I could build my confidence.

I don't like walking down hallways, or pathways, or any ways. I try to walk as fast as I can to hide. I don't want people to see my face, I don't want people to see my body. I don't want people to look. I like to look at the floor, or rather pretend to look elsewhere as if someone is on the other end waiting for me.

I don't like when people stare, it makes me uncomfortable.I'm scared to look people in the eye sometimes, because of what they might see. Lack of asthetics, whole package wise- head to toe.

So I'm sorry if I come off stand-offish.. It's in my nature to feel embarassed about myself. I wish it was always fall. So i could hide under sweaters, and mittens, and scarves and hats. So no one would have to look at me in scrutiny, all bundled and secure.. so safe and sound.. my comfort zone which im so hesitant to leave..